Why I do what I do

To be present is a beautiful blessing often taken for granted. For those who have experienced complex trauma, the past grips and rewinds, and the future is played out before it happens, leaving little room to just be, right now. When I create, I can be here, in this moment, fully alive. Putting paint to paper connects me to my Creator, keeps me grounded, and awakens my authentic self. It is the gift I grab hold of as I connect with the Holy Spirit, asking Him to lead my creative process.

Gazing down at the colors dancing and melding on paper, the door to my soul opens and joy is released. As I decide where to make my next mark, I am already in awe of the journey. At the same time, like a little one waiting in anticipation on Christmas morning, the exhilaration builds and I ache to see what my process will reveal…then, I come back for more, to do it all over again, in the presence of my Creator, because that’s where life really begins.

It hasn’t always been this way though. My life has been one, long, enduring trek in the wilderness…but GOD! I am living proof that He heals and is so good! My Heavenly Father is taking the pain of my past-tremendous grief from traumatic events that my body has held for far too long, and painting the masterpiece only He can, showering me with peace that the world can’t give, and lasting joy that can’t be taken! PRAISE GOD!